dreams and aspirations

I had a dream last night that Jonathan Safran Foer and I met in Ashland. My sister knew him and intimated that they had dated or something briefly many many years ago when she lived in New York. Well, we hit it off like gangbusters and the next thing I knew we were having Thanksgiving dinner at my parents house in Yreka where a gaggle of old ladies all dressed in red were in the back yard with my mother who had decorated the back yard all in red with a red red runner like a red carpet down the center leading to where the birds would be buried to cook. And Jonathan Safran Foer filled up a mug with a special wine he had brought from Europe and told me I smelled of lilacs. It was really great. I just finished his latest book, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close and I really liked it. In fact, I was explaining the plot to my coworker and she got goosebumps and I started to tear up from telling the different stories. It was so silly. I really like my coworker angelina and her fiance who also works with us but in a separate area. They are getting married next June so we talk about wedding stuff a lot and it makes me feel like a real live girl.

I've been feeling sort of self conscious about writing this blog because it is so self indulgent. Tell me I'm being ridiculous. Thanks.

I was going to write a book but I've changed my mind for now. Jonathan Safran Foer made me want to write a book but then when I finished his book and I liked it so much it made me feel really inadequate. Which might be another reason why I've been feeling self conscious about writing in this blog.

I'm done with school for a while so other than working 6 hours every day, my time has been spent sleeping in, playing video games, watching movies, and debating whether or not to write a book. And I've been doing some GRE preparation, which is really fun. I am surprised whenever I know anything. I still haven't narrowed down the schools that I want to apply to but my most likely list right now is UC Irvine, UC San Diego, University of Oregon, Berkeley(just for fun because I don't think I'll get in but it would be really great to live in Berkeley), and maybe maybe UC Davis. Although probably not that last one. And possible some other places. Mostly I'm sticking to the west coast which might include University of Washington but I don't know if I can handle that weather. Maybe I'll follow in my sister's footsteps and apply to Columbia so that I can go to school with Isaac. And then I get drop out when Broadway calls. Although I doubt it. But I was briefly entertaining the idea of NYU because I heart NY. But I think the east coast is mostly out of the question as I am a west coast kind of girl. I think.

I saw Little Miss Sunshine last weekend. And I saw Talladega Nights. Both were very very funny. I watched the documentary Why We Fight, which was awesome and I think everyone should see it. And I watched Elaine Stritch:At Liberty, which was a one woman show on Broadway of this old broad who has diabetes just like me. But it isn't about how she has diabetes. It is how she was a drunk and knew Noel Coward and went out on a date with Marlon Brando, etc etc. With songs in between. She is great.

I can't remember what else. Except that I love Jonathan Safran Foer.