I could go back to college. I might.
If I did, I would try to "Glom on" better to the people who I think are really smart and talented. Of course, sometimes the ones that surprise you, that are not so obviously and instantly recognized as smart and talented end up being the ones that make movies with alexander payne. And others just hang on forever to college life because they can be as creative and talented as they want without having to work that hard at it. I am most jealous of these folks. Some of them work really hard and go to New York and actually work fairly steadily in the Bidness and meet smart and talented greek girls to marry. Still others just get married and leave it at that. My point is, what the hell am I doing here??????? I need to start a commune or a cult and surround myself with people I like and then brainwash them into never leaving to start their own real lives. Who's with me? I'll get you into heaven.
In retrospect, I didn't work hard enough. Or at all. But anyone could've told you that about me a long time ago.
What about more student loans? I could do that. More student loans and insurance through the state. They could support my ass while I better myself. Just because you are poor and old and have diabetes doesn't mean you don't deserve a 2nd chance at a decent education and job, right? right?
March 29, 2005
If I could go back to college, why I'd...
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It's also a lot easier the second time around. The school part. It's like all the things that kept you from doing any schoolwork the first time: hormones, insanity, not wanting to miss anything fun, deep depression; those things are gone and your brain functions and you can actually do your schooling and do your funning. It's funny that you just got through saying how you weren't a people person and liked to be all alone all the time and now you're telling the god's honest truth about wanting a commune. Ha. And truth be told, if your mother had the right people around all the time she'd probably be a lot happier. That's why she sits in her shedhouse listening to sad songs about old friends. Get out of there. I have a new friend your age who's DPing the movie I'm directing. He's really cute too. And from Kansas. Like Dorothy Gale. And Toto too.
College kicks ass. I think that part of the reason that I am getting my MFA is so that I then teach at some art school. Teaching at some art school is like attending some art school and I could forever be a student. Join me in my Some Art School Commune. You can teach Acting Or Something Like That.
I didn't say I wasn't a people person. Even if I live on a commune with a hundred other like-minded people I would no doubt find lots of time to be alone. I just read this article on shyness, actually, and it talked about the difference between being shy and being reserved or inverted. I am a people person but I don't really like most people. And Timo found my website because he or she is a fan of louden and rufus wainwright. Way to go timo! Keep up the good work! Did you read all of my blog? That's a lot of reading for just one little person. Now I have to post something about mitch hedberg.
Okay, no, you said, "I really like to be alone completely. I have a hard time even conceiving of marriage because of this fact." Which is different. So I directed a movie and now I will sleep until the baby's born. Okay, I may direct another movie with Caveh Zahedi. But I can't worry about that yet. Agnieszka says hi.
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