Excuses

Steve wondered why I don't post very often in a comment recently. The reason is because I do most of my blogging afterwork at a coffee place or at the library and sometimes at work which is bad. And I feel guilty for it. So guilty, in fact, that I inadvertently recommended that my boss add spyware to my computer at work. I don't know how it happened really, all I know is that one minute I was asking her questions about web access at work and the next minute she was answering my questions by showing my how our spyware works and then showing me how to install it and then installing it on my computer. Oh well. It is for the best, really. I shouldn't blog at work and I shouldn't read other people's blogs at work. I don't have a computer at home but that all may be solved soon because my brother's coworker is selling him his for really cheap because he is an alltech kind of guy who needs the newest shit all the time. So I may be able to post more frequently. In fact, this week I expect a lot of blogging since I am in Yreka for the week with no working at all. I'm very excited. All this guilt and anxiety at work would also be solved if I took marigold's advice and got another job which hopefull I'll be able to work on this week too. Nothing makes me feel more guilty than looking for and applying for jobs at work, both of which I have done in the past couple of weeks.

The real problem, I think, is that I am a stimulus whore. I have to have constant stimuli and at work I sometimes need to be reading the news when I answer phones and make appointments. I have the least amount of errors and the most productivity compared with my coworkers according to my boss so I don't think it really effects my job but it does make me feel guilty. all the time.

So in addition to making up shit to write about here and looking for a job, I have several other projects to work on this weekend. I have to pick a song and monologue to do for another audition on saturday and then I have to work on them. I brought all my CD's so I can make some kick ass mixed CD's for myself because I enjoy doing that. I also brought my gamecube and some piano music so I can learn to play the piano again and play my new lord of the rings game. Every minute will be accounted for. My parents have an endless supply of magazines and I brought a couple books. The only thing I don't have are movies but I can watch tv and rent a movie if I want to.

Also, currently my brother and I are obsessed with Tenacious D. I got 2 dvd's from netflix with live stuff and their hbo stuff and some videos. My brother is especially obsessed with the song Tribute and plays it over and over and over again. Just before and after this part especially.


It is pretty awsome and I recommend it heartily to all and sundry.