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So here I am in Yreka at mommy and daddy's house. I decided to go ahead and take marigolds advice and only 2 1/2 hours after taking that dumb inkblot test and then going through all the rigamarole to get this blog I am actually posting something only to realize that I really don't have much to say. I think I'll use this as a means to document some of the diabetes stuff I've been going through recently so if anybody who may come across this to read it finds it depressing you can just go screw yourselves because I think it will be a healthy outlet for me. I recently went to see an endocrinologist for the first time in my life which in the endocrin system related auto-immune disorder undeground is like not seeing an oncologist if you are diagnosed with cancer. Its kinda weird. But there wasn't one in yreka and there wasn't one in eureka and when I lived in palo alto I only had insurance for like 2 months out of the three months I was there and didn't even see a doctor. I hate doctors. So I had sort of a panic attack there which I don't think I've had before. I guess maybe I have but this was a very well documented one since the nurse kept asking me if I was okay when my pulse and blood pressure shot through the roof after the first 10 minutes I was there. Alls I know is I freaked out. Anyway, it went really well, I am doing really well, diabetically speaking, and things are looking up in the long run which is usually a good thing unless you have already resigned yourself to a life time of self pity. It sort of put a wrench in that spoke so to speak. He said that since after almost a decade of having diabetes I have no signs of any complications I am probably in a very small percentage of type 1 diabetics, about 10 percent, who are lucky bastards and don't develop problems for a long long time. The luck of the fucking irish, irony and all. The next thing I wright will not be so diabetes-centric, I promise. Or so serious. But this is the most major thing in my life recently. I'll probably work my way back in time a bit to get some of you who I haven't talked to in a long time up on my comings and goings and what nots.